Saturday, January 19, 2013

Forget the ALPHA



Could it be possible to forget your past?
Maybe, maybe not.


Sand prints the history of footsteps, so as life. Our decisions and actions in the past leave marks to the people around us however unlike the footprints on the sand- it vanishes. The wind and even the waves from the ocean help to cease the markings of the steps.

I talked to my friend over the phone yesterday and the core of our conversation was all about me and my past. I told her about the admiration I feel toward a girl I met in Greenhills- her being gorgeous and simple made her more beautiful. When I first saw her, I said to my self "I like her" which there's nothing wrong about it. We are both single.

That same night,  I got her  phone number but instead of texting her, I just kept it and I am hesitant to make a move because of one thing -my past. What if, she will totally become my girlfriend and she learned something about me? will I endure it seeing her crying because of that? and if I tell her everything about myself, am I ready to take a rejection? or maybe I am just putting clouds of doubt in her mind.

I know, no matter how hard I revert the things I did, I won't change it anymore. My friend over the phone told me to forget the alpha and be someone new but many "what ifs" are still running in my mind.

I just  hope that one day,  the wind will perfectly forget my flaws in the past and a wave of changes will definitely cover them all.



11 comments:

  1. I think it is better for you to try it than not trying at all. If the girl likes you and eventually be your girlfriend, no matter how difficult it is, she would accept your past because she loves you. Your past might hunt you, however, it helps you to be a better one at present. Yes, honesty sometimes is very difficult to accept but, like what they say it will set you free. Thanks for adding me in g+. saw your blog link and here I am dropping a comment on one of your post. I'll add you na rin para maki-osyoso ehehe. Thanks again.

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    1. Thank you Rix. you have the same advice with my best friend. I just hope to defeat my fear.

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    2. you can do it... Go! ehehe.

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  3. Could it be possible to forget your past?

    no... unless magka-amnesia ka?
    (and normally sa movies and teleseryes lang effective ang amnesia.. lols)

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  4. you will never know until you try :)

    that irking feeling will haunt you until you finally got around and made an effort to meet and get to know this person.

    not really having any major expectation, what's important is that you also give yourself a chance

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  6. Naligaw sa lungga ni superman (based on your bg wallpaper) :D

    @topic:
    It's being here now that's important. There's no past and there's no future. Time is a very misleading thing. All there is ever, is the now. We can gain experience from the past, but we can't relive it; and we can hope for the future, but we don't know if there is one.

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    1. Thanks Fiel, I am hopping to make move one day.

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